Is it Wrong

Is it wrong to wish the world ended bloody two years ago?

Boozed Christmas Obvious alcohol tw

.....jus going to be drinking a lil.



Maybe.

To Be Utterly,Horribly and Devastatingly Alone

I wonder why I bother anymore.



Why I'm even trying to survive for. Something will keep coming for me. Feels like something always has been. Friends either just leave me or die on me. Either way I'm left relatively unscathed.


Mostly.



But I poison those who care the most. So...so I don't know what my next move is going to be. I'll try to keep you updated on my condition.



Not making any promises.

Happy Winter Solstice

I have a sore ankle,co-worker who refuses to speak to me and an urge to stay hidden. But sadly I have to work. Otherwise I don't think I would be going anywhere today. And probably would be sleeping.



Oh well.

Stiff Limbs

Lately I've been waking up with stiff or aching joints. Like someone was tugging on my hands and feet for fun. I don't remember feeling it because I sleep like a log. But I'm concerned that it means either I haven't been sleeping right. I need a new bed in the near future.



Or something supernatural.



I'm just hoping it means I need a new bed.



Fuck. I forgot to mention my co-worker's little experience. She's not being contacted from what I can tell. But she said the Puppet People watch her whenever I'm not there. My boss thinks they're harmless.



I don't know how to tell her how wrong she is without endangering her.

A Dream of Wires and Time

I had a dream where I was laying on a poorly constructed bed with people surrounding me. They were facing away from me,limp and dangling by their wires. None of which touched me at all.

My head felt thick like a block of cement and I couldn't move. Like my whole body was made of wood or something. But I could feel everything. The bed's sheets. Cool night air against my face. The sounds of the people creaking and moaning as they stood near me. Some were incoherent but the others were begging for death. Each were familiar to me. I think they were the Puppet People who follow me.

At least what they used to be.

Then they turned to me..their faces..oh god their faces! They were either torn and bloody or...or not there at all! And what was there was a crude carving of a face. Like someone was doing a rough draft of what they should look like or something to that effect. They certainly didn't look like that now. Each of them stared down at me. Or not me. But the last Maiden before myself. I suddenly switched perspectives with something and saw she was crying and...and she looked like me...almost like me..only she had darker and longer hair than me. She was....begging them to let her go..to let her go home.

A bedraggled Splinter walked into the room and taunted her. Called her awful names until she started crying. I was screaming for it all to stop but no one seemed to hear me. She did..did something with a knife and I...she became the girl on the bed. Took over her fucking body and twisted the Hell out of it...th..then she looked straight at me...and smiled. I woke up screaming. I was..am okay.

I did however wake up to something odd though...my mum..front door is fixed. And unlocked...

Worth It

Sometimes I wonder if surviving is really worth it anymore. I've got no actual friends,my.family either is dead or they don't care I'm gone. And I'm pretty sure that I'm not going to stop her. She might be the death of me.

Hell if I beat them,what do I do after? Just where do I go? I don't know if being in this house is safe anymore. They've probably broken in here. There's dried blood on one of the bedroom doors and I know it isn't mine.

I...I don't think so at least.

It might be a puppet's blood but I don't think they bleed. I can't recall if I made the Hobo bleed or not. The whole setting him on fire thing was a fear induced blur. Either way I know it isn't mine.

But I gotta wonder how it got there. Cuz it's definitely too little to be lethal. So whoever it belongs to,at least they're alive.

Two Things

I lost my second job. I'm not going to get into why. But it was for the best,I suppose. After all I was horrible at that job. I'm going to apply someplace else. Hopefully it works out well for me.

Onto supernatural news.

I'm going to be completely honest with you all. These past few days have been really tense and I am getting tired. Really tired of waiting for them to do something. Watching my back for the puppet I tried to burn to try and hurt me. And I...I just can't stay quiet about those kids anymore.

No one even remembers they existed!

It's like they weren't even real! But I remember them. I remember all of them. Their screams,their fears and their tears. I remember them..why doesn't anyone else?

Why am I the only one who remembers? Does anyone know why? I..I just need someone to tell me. Please?

PLEASE?!

Long Story Short

Dolls oddly enough don't burn. I really wish someone had told me that before I tried to do that. Now I look like a complete fool and I accomplished absolutely nothing by doing that to the hobo.

Well I did manage to piss him off.

He kinda chased me for four blocks. I only managed to get away because I got across train tracks before a huge ass train had rolled by and stopped. Also the many cars nearby probably discouraged any supernatural means of keeping me. I was very lucky to have gotten away at all. If I try something that foolish again I think I'm going to be completely fucked.

Oh well.

In other news I haven't viewed a certain bitch's T.V. shows yet. At least that's something to be thankful for. But I'm guessing that won't happen until winter or so. Ya know cuz I won't be going really anywhere. Not having a car kinda sucks. I could have probably ran over those creepy dolls and been done with some of this bullshit.

I just hope that I can keep out running them. I really don't want to know what they will do if they catch me. It probably won't be pretty.

Matter of Time

I'm trying to keep an eye on Alice's posts on Tumblr. Lately they're becoming more Alice in Wonderland than usual. Like her calling the Rake "Jabberwok". And maybe I'm overreacting but it seems that she's becoming more odd.

Like little Miss "Alice".

She still trusts my sister but I don't think Tina can stay together for very long. She seems to be unraveling at the seams. Rotting away into nothing more than a puddle of green gunk. If my assumption is right...Alice might lose more than her head.

Headaches

I've been waking up with headaches again. This time might be from the horrible sleeping hours I have,not drinking enough water or just stress. Either way I'm considering drilling a hole in my head to relieve the pressure.

Onto creepy things news. I'm not seeing any puppets in the open lately,but I have noticed them in other places. Like old buildings and rooftops.

Generally places where no-one is allowed. Like the usual with those dicks. I'm kinda wondering what it is with them and abandoned places. Creep factor maybe? Or possibly less likely to be caught in those places. By whom I don't particularly give a fuck. Either way I'm carrying a lighter and maybe something flammable tomorrow.

Can't wait to see how well they might burn. Hehehehe....

Irritated

My temper is starting to get really bad lately. I'm making friends upset and alienating the rest of them. They did nothing wrong or bad to me.

I think it's the stress getting to me. Or I'm just that shitty of a human being. At this point I'm not quite sure which it is. Either way I'm disgusting.

I would apologize but I'd feel like a fool. That's what I am after all.

A giant fool.

Last Night

TRIGGER WARNING: Blood and body horror.


I dreamt that I couldn't see for some reason and there were these weird things coming out of my arm. My right arm actually. It felt like spider webs but not as sticky. And they were very warm for some odd reason,but I don't know why.

They weren't painful until it felt like they were being tugged on by something incredibly strong. I was sure that whatever it was it wasn't good. But the more I resisted the tugging,the harder it became. Like I had somehow managed to snag a wild creature with these things.

After what felt like hours..the tugging suddenly ended. I don't know what possessed me to open my eyes but I did...and I saw through someone or rather something's eyes. I saw myself and I couldn't believe what I was seeing.

I had bandages covering my eyes...and good Lord were they bleeding! I was smiling despite not wanting to and holding the metal lantern in my left hand. It was glowing a soft yellow light.

It occasionally flickered too. I only woke up when I heard my alarm phone go off. Something tells me that if I hadn't heard my phone,I wasn't going to wake up.

The Green Blooded Puppet

I don't know what is exactly going on with Tina.

But from what I read on Alice's blog,she's refusing to eat,speak or take off a medical mask. I'm guessing they picked that up at a store or something. Not sure where they are.

Anyone mind talking to them for me?

I don't know what to ask or say and I'm worried that I'll come off as an ass.  Also I don't think Alice's number is working. I tried calling this morning but it went straight to voicemail. So either it was off or it was disconnected. Either way I can't call them.

http://outofthecoldchild.tumblr.com/

That's her blog. Please help me reach her.

Just A Wee Bit Too Hangry

I literally wasn't a dick to my boss today. Said a little something that I shouldn't have and as soon as possible I'll apologize. Not going to repeat what I said. I really don't want to get too into it right now.

Anyway.

People Puppets weren't at the Cafe when I was working. But they were coming in when I was leaving. Thankfully they didn't notice that I was nearby so I got home okay. Still. It was pretty close.

I don't know what they are up to,but memory loss is a new trick for them. Especially since I doubt that it was directly the puppet who did it. But I'm going to keep an eye out for them tomorrow. I think if I bike to work with a coworker I might be okay. Maybe.

Not gonna hold my breath that this will be fine.

After  all when have things ever really gone right for me?

Three Months Or So

Good news,I got a second job and I have more money coming in than before. My new job has been paying pretty well. I'm saving up for a new laptop and possibly the vacation. Though I'm highly doubting that I'm gonna be able to go. Cuz life is extremely fun like that ya know?

Bad news is that I noticed our guests are a bit on the stringed side. I was so hoping that they wouldn't find out about this. Like literally hoping and wishing that I would have a safe place. But last time at the new job,one of them sat with me. I don't remember that. My coworker asked me who my friend was because we seemed to know each other very well and she apparently hugged me.

Hugged me.

I said she worked at the cafe like I did. And that was the end of the matter. I...I can't believe I have no memory of that. I checked my person afterwards and found nothing in my pockets. Well. Lint but that's about it.

I wish I could be done with this bullshit.

Trapped Inside and No Way Out

As of late,I've been feeling trapped in my own home.

Walking helps a bit. I can get fresh air as I admire how well the plants are growing in. But the effect is temporary. Gotta go home when it gets dark. Then the feeling intensifies. Like I'm a caged creature that craves its freedom.

With the puppet people around lately...I haven't been able to step outside of my home unless I need to work. Or I have to buy necessities. Which hasn't been too often. When I do go out,I go with a co-worker.

Really worried that they'll hurt someone.

At least the kids have been fine. Lately there have been no shows featuring them. No rumors about any going missing. Or dying.

Let's hope it stays that way.

Will They Follow Me?

I might be going to Seattle this summer. Might. Depends on if I save up enough money for the trip with my friends. Not sure when either. But hopefully we'll be able to go at all. Which would be lovely.

I just want to leave for a while,ya know?

This place feels so cramped and I got this urge to wander. Which isn't easy when there's nothing to do here. And yer broke. Like I am. So I really hope that works out. Also crossing my fingers that they don't follow us.

Can't exactly relax when yer worrying about whether or not the creepy puppet people are on yer tail. Or tell the people I'm going with that I'm being followed. They'll get involved and possibly try to convince me to go to the police.

Not exactly comfortable with getting them involved at all. So let's just hope that certain people stay away from us during that time.

Highly doubt that they will. Still. If yer gonna dream,why not dream big?

Update on My Well-being

I have been busy with work and finding a second job. Only one application I sent in so far seems promising. Pretty sure the other place is full or they don't need someone with my job skills at this time.

Which is fine.

Had an interview at the other place and I believe it went well. Person I interviewed with said that she would speak with her boss. Pretty sure that I'm going to be employed there soon. At least that's what I'm hoping for. I could be grotesquely optimistic about this. Still gonna cross my fingers and hope.

Onto the "fun" stuff. So far the T.V hasn't come on. And all the kids seem to be avoiding a park for one closer to my house. Well closer than the other one at least. It's about a ten minute walk away from my home. If I can believe the rumors that is. And I'm so glad that I didn't delude myself into believing that they left. Just because they aren't around as much as they used to.

Maybe the reason is that people are noticing their weirdness?

One of my co-workers is. She served the hobo one at least two weeks ago and asked me to get something in the back of the shop. I did. With her directly behind me. As soon as we were out of hearing range of the jerk,she asked if he always had strings attached to his joints or if she was imagining that. To be honest...that scared the fuck out of me. But I couldn't tell her the truth ya know? I can't get her involved. Oh but I didn't want to be a shitty friend either. So I did the sensible thing.

Lied and told her that she must be working to hard. That I saw no strings attached to the puppet man. And told her that she needs to sleep more. She didn't argue with this and went back to work. Doubt that she believed me when I said that. My guess is that she didn't want to deal with them.

Don't blame her.

Now I'm worried that my other co-workers are going to see the strings. Not sure if this was just a momentary lapse in magic or they wanted her to see. Either way I'm going to have to keep an eye out for this. Joy.

Valentine's Week

They're doing gross lovey dovey shows now. In the most uncomfortable and disturbing manner I've ever witnessed them do. Like I'm not even sure that the Addams Family would've gotten away with this crap. Kids killing each other but not dying.

A mom that looks like some cross between a spider and a centaur.

Father that's this lake fae thing. He lured many people into a lake. With just his singing alone.

Then this show about a serial killing woman who offed her dates when they failed to live up to her expectations. It was like watching most shows about stalker dudes. She used this huge knife thing to do it to. And hid their bodies in the freezer.

Last show was...really strange. Not sure why those people just ended up..fusing together into a blob for. But I really didn't like it. Also it pulsated weirdly and squirmed after others.

It was so gross that I had to leave.

Really not liking this at all.

Boy Is Still Running

The kid's doctor is still looking for him. Got a look at the bastard. He's wearing a fucked up beakmask and so are some of his associates. Not sure why though. But I doubt it was for health reasons.

Wonder if that guy is Alice's Doctor. Certainly looks like he is. But I'm not entirely sure. After all. Alice isn't even sure of what he looks like.

And that stuff Janice had in the box? A heart. They presented it to a person in a blue coat who seemed to be their boss?

Which seemed weird because they looked nothing like the Wooden Girl. She would never wear a coat. Puppet like her wouldn't need it. And the Lady of the Lantern doesn't have feet,legs or clothes. Also she's blue skinned. The person had white skin. So that really rules out a certain glow-bitch.

Who the Hell are they?

Nathan Is Home

I was really surprised that he had called today. Especially since he hasn't responded to anything that I tried. Lovely how out of the blue he remembered me. And that I existed at all.

But he didn't sound right. Almost like he was reading from a script or something like that. It was really strange and creepy. He kept asking me weird questions too. Mostly about the lantern.


Not sure if I should be worried or not.

Really hoping that nothing is wrong with him.

Cheers! Oh My Glub!

I am happy that Tina's fine and writing again. Despite what she or any of you believe,she isn't a coward. Self preservation is how we keep alive in bad situations like she was in. And that kid was pretty much dead when Janice and Percy got their hands on them. So she really needs to be easier on herself.

Also. The boy with the imaginary friend did something I didn't expect. At all. Like this was pretty cool and crazy.

He broke out of the hospital and is on the run. I don't know if he had hidden in something or if his so-called imaginary friend did it. But he is free and running fast. Let's hope the orderlies and police are slower.

It Was Not Her

I don't believe it.

I saw what it was and I still don't believe it.

They were getting parts from rotten people doll things. Most were either dead or only sort of alive. You know. Twitching all over the place but most likely not going to be fighting back anytime soon. After they left. The camera lingered in the place for a while. Tina crawled out of what I'm assuming is the janitor's closet. She didn't have the whatever it is she's been publishing blog posts on.

I'm only going to guess that means she either hidden it or possibly lost it. But I hope she will post something soon. Just to see how she managed to ditch the creepsticks. Hell how she's still alive.

And why does she have so many strange markings on her arms and face. They sort of looked like scars. Greenish ones. Like a Glasgow Grin and claw marks. I sorta don't want to know what did those.

Got a feeling we're going to find out soon.

And They Left

They left the schoolhouse just a little while ago with this weird looking chest. Janice was clinging to it. Her face was super pale and she seemed to be crying? I think she was. Her eyes were red and her face was kinda puffy.

It was leaking this weird liquid. Greenish liquid. Kinda horrified by the idea that maybe it could be Tina's blood. I..I really can't handle that. I really just can't.

Tina if you're reading this,please make a blog post. Anything to prove that your alive. Please?

They're Still Searching

I don't understand. What the Hell are they looking for? It's obvious that the whole place is deserted. No one is there. So why are they still searching this place for?

Just who or what is that important that they have to obsessively search an obviously empty schoolhouse?

I wish I knew why what they're doing this for. Did their "boss" demand that they do this? Seems like something she would have them do. But for what fucking purpose? Ugh...I could just scream. At least those jerks haven't floated by. Haven't seen them since last time. Really wishing that would be the very last time I see them. Knowing my luck. It won't be.

About to Drift Off

When the T.V turned on by itself.

With Candle Cove playing a very troubling episode featuring a decrepit school in an abandoned town. Percy seemed scared of the new place. Janice didn't like it much either. The shore of this place was a bit gross. There was garbage everywhere. And they started to explore the schoolhouse carefully. And right now they're still searching. I thought I heard a voice.

It sounded so very familiar but I'm not sure why.

I think it might be...Tina? No way. No. It can't be. She's still in that other place. The weird world that belongs to the Lady of the Lantern. She would have mentioned it. At least I would have read it in her blog. But so far she hasn't written anything. I'm worried that she might be...no. She isn't dead.

My sister is alive and well. She's okay. Oh please be okay. Tina. Please be safe. Please.

The Show Must End

I don't want to see more of these people in danger. But it seems I can't get them to stop no matter how hard I try.  I know I should have just stopped trying a long time ago but I just keep hoping that I'll manage to make it stop.

Stupid optimism on my part,eh?

Candle Cove is still being highly disturbing and heart breaking. Poor Janice is barely holding it together. And I feel like a jackass just sitting here watching this fucking show.

But I don't think there's anything I can do. And I just..just can't...I should move on to the next Hell show that claws out my feels.

The so-called "imaginary friend" that boy has. "She" broke his collarbone and a few of his ribs. The doctor believes that the boy did this to himself. But I knew better than that. That fucked up creature did it.

Either way he's going to be under a stricter watch. Hopefully this actually helps the kid. Otherwise he's going to be hurt worse.

Puppets are Lurking in the Backyard

They have been in my backyard just floating above the snow. Staring at me. Like they were either surprised or were watching for something. But I'm pretty sure they were surprised. After I saw them and they knew I could see them.

They just vanished.


Poof! Like they were made of smoke or something. And I'm worried that means they've found a new way of getting to me.

I really hope not.

It Isn't Clever

I think when the new Janice called out to me yesterday,it might've been a trap. How else could she have known my name?


No other idea makes sense.

So there's a possibility that there never was a fourth wall to protect me. Like that should have been obvious to me from the start. Yet it somehow wasn't. Just how are they watching me?

And why do this now? Why not earlier? Could they not have been strong enough? Either way I am going to be having a hard time sleeping tonight.

I Hate When They Break The Fourth Wall

Have I ever mentioned that before?

I absolutely hate it when they do that. Especially when it's a show featuring a rather disturbing amount of death and violence against children/mentally ill people. I didn't know what to do when Janice broke character to beg me to find her. She didn't do it loudly enough for Percy to hear but it was clear enough for me. And as much as I want to go save the child.

I can't.

I have no idea where she is or how I could go to her. I'm pretty sure there is no way that I could. Just can't stand the way she was almost crying as she pleaded to me. My heart nearly broke.

Not like the boy with the "imaginary" fie-friend was any better.

I won't go into too much detail. But let's just say that I never want to watch this so-called show ever a-fucking-gain. My heart can't take it.

Fuck You Termite Bait Bitch

You know your day is going well when you get up and see the T.V. is on. And you didn't turn it on and your the only one home. Especially when that ever adorable show about pirates,death and child endangerment is on! Oh it makes an already shitty day even more shitty.

I feel so bad for the new Janice. She is too sweet and young to deserve this kind of horrible shit. If only I could save her from those bastards. But I don't know if I could or not. Hell I'm not sure if it's possible.

Or wise.

Though I still should do something about this. Can't just let them keep the poor baby and potentially kill her for the sake of entertainment. That's just wrong and I don't think I would be able to live with myself if I let this go on.

Ugh..if only I could find out where they're broadcasting from! Then I could go and get the poor baby.

Somehow I don't think that would be possible. And even if it was at all possible,there would probably be a trap waiting for me. Probably all those creepy puppet fuckers and their horrible wooden bitch mistress.

She would probably make her little minions kill me. And that's if she's feeling generous! But I can't wait forever. Poor baby won't last long. I can't fail her like I failed Alice. I..I just can't.

Nothing On The New Janice

Just really unfunny episodes of her almost crying and nearly dying because of Percy being an idiot. He forgets that she needs food. A bed. And almost let the fucking Skin Taker get her. Which makes me wonder if he hates the new Janice or something. Seems likely. Though why I'm not sure of.

After all he took her from her normal life. He kinda brought this upon himself. Friggin' bastard.

Other "exciting" news. Boy with the so called imaginary friend might not be all that crazy. Because I think I saw her. Or at least a glimpse of what the "friend" might look like. And it was God awful. Her face almost looked rotten and leathery. I'm not too sure though,I didn't get a good look. Also security cameras suck.

I honestly hope that I didn't really see what I think I saw.