Irritated

My temper is starting to get really bad lately. I'm making friends upset and alienating the rest of them. They did nothing wrong or bad to me.

I think it's the stress getting to me. Or I'm just that shitty of a human being. At this point I'm not quite sure which it is. Either way I'm disgusting.

I would apologize but I'd feel like a fool. That's what I am after all.

A giant fool.

Last Night

TRIGGER WARNING: Blood and body horror.


I dreamt that I couldn't see for some reason and there were these weird things coming out of my arm. My right arm actually. It felt like spider webs but not as sticky. And they were very warm for some odd reason,but I don't know why.

They weren't painful until it felt like they were being tugged on by something incredibly strong. I was sure that whatever it was it wasn't good. But the more I resisted the tugging,the harder it became. Like I had somehow managed to snag a wild creature with these things.

After what felt like hours..the tugging suddenly ended. I don't know what possessed me to open my eyes but I did...and I saw through someone or rather something's eyes. I saw myself and I couldn't believe what I was seeing.

I had bandages covering my eyes...and good Lord were they bleeding! I was smiling despite not wanting to and holding the metal lantern in my left hand. It was glowing a soft yellow light.

It occasionally flickered too. I only woke up when I heard my alarm phone go off. Something tells me that if I hadn't heard my phone,I wasn't going to wake up.

The Green Blooded Puppet

I don't know what is exactly going on with Tina.

But from what I read on Alice's blog,she's refusing to eat,speak or take off a medical mask. I'm guessing they picked that up at a store or something. Not sure where they are.

Anyone mind talking to them for me?

I don't know what to ask or say and I'm worried that I'll come off as an ass.  Also I don't think Alice's number is working. I tried calling this morning but it went straight to voicemail. So either it was off or it was disconnected. Either way I can't call them.

http://outofthecoldchild.tumblr.com/

That's her blog. Please help me reach her.

Just A Wee Bit Too Hangry

I literally wasn't a dick to my boss today. Said a little something that I shouldn't have and as soon as possible I'll apologize. Not going to repeat what I said. I really don't want to get too into it right now.

Anyway.

People Puppets weren't at the Cafe when I was working. But they were coming in when I was leaving. Thankfully they didn't notice that I was nearby so I got home okay. Still. It was pretty close.

I don't know what they are up to,but memory loss is a new trick for them. Especially since I doubt that it was directly the puppet who did it. But I'm going to keep an eye out for them tomorrow. I think if I bike to work with a coworker I might be okay. Maybe.

Not gonna hold my breath that this will be fine.

After  all when have things ever really gone right for me?

Three Months Or So

Good news,I got a second job and I have more money coming in than before. My new job has been paying pretty well. I'm saving up for a new laptop and possibly the vacation. Though I'm highly doubting that I'm gonna be able to go. Cuz life is extremely fun like that ya know?

Bad news is that I noticed our guests are a bit on the stringed side. I was so hoping that they wouldn't find out about this. Like literally hoping and wishing that I would have a safe place. But last time at the new job,one of them sat with me. I don't remember that. My coworker asked me who my friend was because we seemed to know each other very well and she apparently hugged me.

Hugged me.

I said she worked at the cafe like I did. And that was the end of the matter. I...I can't believe I have no memory of that. I checked my person afterwards and found nothing in my pockets. Well. Lint but that's about it.

I wish I could be done with this bullshit.