This is The Longest Update

I'm sorry. It's been so long because I have been moving and I haven't been settled in. My friend is...better. He's better. No problems or pain. Just fine.


Or so he claims.


Being paranoid but,he sounds funny. And when I went over to get more of my stuff...anyway. The puppets aren't around just yet. My t.v. is fine for now. Who knows how long this kind of peace will last. Or if it's truly that.


This has gone on for too fucking long. I can't take it anymore. I'm constantly stressed that they're going to get me. That they'll kill me.


I ain't going to be a puppet for a puppet. Or some bitch with a lantern fetish's plaything. I'm done.


I'm fighting back.


I'm killing them. And to whomever is reading this. I'm sorry. But I can't sit here waiting for someone to help or hurt me.


I'm sorry,Alice and Tina. This was fun. Goodbye.

An Update of Sorts

My wrist is hurting like Hell lately. It's cuz of the weather,I think. Mostly the weather has been going from blazingly hot to tolerable cool. Which has also set off my headaches too. Also my allergies were horrible this month. Been coughing so bad that I can hardly breathe at times.


But my friend's health has considerably gotten better since last entry. No weird movements. Or any that I've noticed. Unfortunately his cable hasn't gotten better. His provider can't explain what's going on since everything seems to be fine. Like they couldn't find a damn thing wrong.


Not surprised. Like the Splinterry Bitch would let any human find it. We have been watching it together. Or sorta. He can't really see it. Like he sees only the good but I've been seeing the bad. It's like she's easing him into my nightmare. But that ain't happening.

I'm going to be hopefully moving out soon. So I'll be...alone...again...But it's okay. I'm used to it. The less people I drag into this,the better.

...oh. you know that Winter guy? I found his channel. And I'm watching his stuff. Kinda interested in the three timeline thing. Since it has a whole lot of weird shit in it. Like it's a multiverse or something like that.

Keeping an eye on this guy.

He seems...familiar...

Stiff Limbs and Reoccurring Pain

My friend's got this knee injury that's getting worse. I'm afraid of what's going to happen to him. He had to go to the emergency room a while ago. Came back sorta fine but I'm concerned. His injury was making him move weird.


Weird like...a...never mind. I need to focus on myself. And my own damn injury that's been flaring up lately.


You see since last year,my wrist has been aching like it's broken. Something has been shifting around in there that isn't bone or anything I can recognize. But I can't afford to go to the hospital. And if I go to urgent care with my friend,he'll ask questions about my wrist that I can't answer.


Like how did I get it.


What caused the injury.


Also why the fuck didn't I tell him about it. Well...yeah...there's also the T.V. issues. It's still playing all the fucked up.shit. My friend...can kinda see it. But all he sees is static. Not the T.V. shows that I have.


He's going to be calling his provider tomorrow. I doubt it's going to do a God damned thing.

When Will The Show End

I'm done being someone's freakshow.


I need to stop living in fear of those puppets. They cannot control my whole life or how I am. Those monsters can't keep me trapped inside my friend's house or hiding forever. Soon I'll move.



I'm going to a new home without a television.



No more Tower T.V. to taunt me with or make me see horrors my friends can't see. Especially things my friends can't see. And I won't see that Winter guy anymore. Watching bad things happen to him reminds me of how worse things can get. But I really don't wanna watch someone in fear. Or be made a puppet.



I've seen enough of that already....



Tina...she's becoming something that..that isn't all together good. I'm not sure if Alice is safe with her anymore. She's doing things to others that aren't in the least bit sane or good. Blood is...she...I know she isn't a real human. But she still acts like one and I'm afraid of what she's up to. I'm...I'm afraid that...



...that she has become a new breed of monster...

The Weekend

.....sorry for the long delay. But it's been a long weekend.


I managed to pack everything at home and my pets are at foster homes. And I miss them terribly. Especially the uber tiny baby. She's so needy and I feel bad for leaving her. Sure she has her brother...but...


Anyway. The Puppet People,mostly Hobo,have been circling this neighborhood. He hasn't seen me and I'm afraid this means nothing. Like he'll find me.


Or he knows where I am already and wants me to lower my guard.


Either way,I'm staying indoors for a while.

Static And The Puppet People

Shows are popping up again. Right on channels that they aren't supposed to be. I can't turn it off no matter what. It's on every fucking channel.


Every.


Fucking.


Channel.


It is part that winter thing and it looks old. Like the "episodes" are from a while ago. This guy is weird. Not sure if it's real. At all. Because the other stuff was half real and half make believe. Or I'm hoping it is.


Anyway. It reminds me of something. The mask is really familiar and I have no idea where though. What freaks me out is that this is a YouTuber. Like he has a channel on YouTube and it's been on my friend's t.v. five fucking times. What's worse is,you know. The whole fact that they can't fucking see it. And if I draw attention to this,they'll be drawn in. Or they won't believe me.


I can't make them come into this. It's too selfish of me and I would make them targets for these fuckers. They don't seem to know exactly where I am.


And I'm going to keep it that way.

Blood Drops All Around

http://outofthecoldchild.tumblr.com/post/123056746146/blood-drops-all-around


.......THE HELL IS GOING ON?!

Moving Woes

Staying with friends until I can get a cheaper place. I'm worried that the Puppet People are going to find me. My friend's t.v. has been acting screwy and I have seen some of the shows from before. Mostly reruns or rehashings.


Something about a dude whose last name is Winter or some shit. Going to check up on him.


Anyway. Onto the most disturbing part. My friends don't see it. They see it as normal television. Like Law and Order SVU or something. They think the stress is getting to me. But haven't done anything drastic. In fact they helped me rehome my cats. So at least I can count on them to have my back.



I have read Alice's Tumblr post and...I have this feeling that Tina's...no longer with us.



I hope that I'm wrong.

Been a Long Time

I know I should have kept you guys updated but things've been hectic. My work schedule has been changed and well. I can move easier now thanks to medication. And I've been sleeping better now.



The therapist I have seen is a great person. She would do well if I wasn't lying out my ass on why I'm so stressed. And I don't know if she can tell. But I don't feel guilty for not telling her the truth.



It would probably get her involved.



Broke the T.V by the way. It was flickering to that hideous channel again and I have been hearing the screaming episode. Yes. The SCREAMING episode. The one with all the actors except Janice are screaming for no reason.



I....I hadn't seen it when it first came on. But my little brother did and I can't reach him for context about it. And I don't want to scare him.



This is getting out of control. I am scared by what's going to happen next. But I will transfer to keep you all posted. So wish me some decent luck.



I'll need it.

No Surgery Needed

But the doctor can't tell what it is.



There are two semihard lumps on my lower back that don't hurt. And I can't feel them either. They're about the size of a quarter but they don't have a clue what is causing it. Or what's wrong with my legs.



But they took a sample so I think they'll find out soon.



I tried to see if this has happened to anyone else before. Wondering if this is HER doing. I'm really hoping that I'm wrong.

Testing and Psychiatric Care

Doctor visit was..."fun". My doctor is suggesting I use a wheelchair for a while. Nothing is broken from what I was told. But something seemed seriously fucking wrong and I have no idea what. Quite frankly neither does the doctor. But I'm afraid it's something serious that'll require surgery.


The doctor is also upset that I'm not sleeping well.


Well doc...it can't be helped.


I'm going to try salting the lantern and other things around the house. Maybe that'll keep her out. I want sleep so badly. I miss dreaming. Maybe I'll dream of something beautiful.


Maybe.

Valentine's Day alcohol mention tw

What a crock of shit it is...I'm alone this year. Just like last. Only issue is I'm sleep deprived and...well...lots of unsavory things. Like I uh..can't walk properly. No issues with my legs but my lower back is fucked up.


My friend is making me see a doctor.


Then a therapist for the sleep issues. But nothing for my new drinking issues. Guess I'm supposed to be shamed outta doing it.


Fuck that.


It helps me get something close to sleep. Not giving it up until I am forced to. Like by the doctor or some shit. Uggh...talk whenever.


I'm gonna go lie down.

I Caved Alcohol Mention Tw

My friends told me that if I didn't sleep that they would do something drastic. I'm guessing hospital drastic. Or worse. Not sure what would be worse than being forced into a...ok yeah there is worse.



Like psych ward worse.



They wouldn't be bad for trying to put me in one. Mental hospitals aren't exactly evil places. But they would sedate me. I would dream. And if I dream...she'll kill me. Thankfully drunken blackouts are almost as good as sleep.



I mean hey. I was "sleeping" for at least six hours or so. Still good enough. Alright,I know it isn't really sleep. Or a good substitute for it. But it's all I honestly got right now. Though I might try medication. It's helped in the past.




No Puppet People news or T.V. shows to talk about. I haven't seen any of them. If I do though...I will tell you all. Hopefully it stays quiet like this. I'm not okay with more missing kids. Especially when I can't help them. It makes me feel so useless. I really hate that fucking stringed asshole.




I want to burn her.

My Lower Back

It's been a few days and my lower back is in knots. Had someone massage my back for me and something freaked them out. Like they refuse to touch my back anymore. I asked what's wrong and they said that this weird...lump had moved.




I had felt none of this.




My back still hurts. I still haven't been sleeping. My coworkers at my second job have noticed. Like I nearly cut my arm with a knife yesterday. They no longer trust me with the knives.




Puppet People aren't coming to the place I now work. So either they don't know where it is. Or they don't have the means.




For now I'm assuming that I'm safe.

My Headaches

I'm so tired.


Sleep isn't going to be happening for a while. At least until I'm able to get somewhere safer. So much safer than here. Not sure when I'll be able to move. Or if I will be able to move. Got one job now because I quit the cafe one. My bosses gave me the option of quitting or being fired.



You can guess which one I picked.



Still seeing the Puppet People around places I frequent. My co-worker told me that they looked for me last week. Looking for me. Asking for me. And my old boss bit their heads off. She also said that was the last time she saw him. As well as the Puppet People. I got asked by the Police about them as well. Seems that my call was recent enough for them. For what I dunno. But I'm pretty damn sure that my former boss isn't among the living.



They'll let his body go soon.


If they're done with it,that is. But knowing those freaks it will be a long,long while. They tend to like to put off the inevitable. Unlike their little friend,I highly doubt they'll show mercy. Especially if my former boss screamed at them. I just. I wish I had properly warned them. They'd think I was crazy. And that they would have me locked up or something. Okay maybe not.locked up. Lack of sleep is really getting to me. I..I might take a nap.


Hopefully no bad dreams. So...fingers crossed. See you all hopefully later.

New Year,Aggressive Kindling

She's in my dreams now.


She's been tugging my limbs out of shape. Telling me that I know how to stop this,all her torment. I have to light the lantern and let it burn for a few days. Or she says she'll break my neck. That was three days ago.


I have since stopped sleeping.


She's not the only stringed creature I got to be concerned about. Puppet People are getting weirder. They stare too long and to often. I am getting so tired of pretending to be fine. I'm getting so tired of just grinning and bearing it. My friends are noticing that I don't sleep,that I don't eat even and the bruises...from the wires...I..I am barely holding it together anymore.


I...wish my sister was here.

A Dream of Wires and Time

I had a dream where I was laying on a poorly constructed bed with people surrounding me. They were facing away from me,limp and dangling by their wires. None of which touched me at all.

My head felt thick like a block of cement and I couldn't move. Like my whole body was made of wood or something. But I could feel everything. The bed's sheets. Cool night air against my face. The sounds of the people creaking and moaning as they stood near me. Some were incoherent but the others were begging for death. Each were familiar to me. I think they were the Puppet People who follow me.

At least what they used to be.

Then they turned to me..their faces..oh god their faces! They were either torn and bloody or...or not there at all! And what was there was a crude carving of a face. Like someone was doing a rough draft of what they should look like or something to that effect. They certainly didn't look like that now. Each of them stared down at me. Or not me. But the last Maiden before myself. I suddenly switched perspectives with something and saw she was crying and...and she looked like me...almost like me..only she had darker and longer hair than me. She was....begging them to let her go..to let her go home.

A bedraggled Splinter walked into the room and taunted her. Called her awful names until she started crying. I was screaming for it all to stop but no one seemed to hear me. She did..did something with a knife and I...she became the girl on the bed. Took over her fucking body and twisted the Hell out of it...th..then she looked straight at me...and smiled. I woke up screaming. I was..am okay.

I did however wake up to something odd though...my mum..front door is fixed. And unlocked...

Worth It

Sometimes I wonder if surviving is really worth it anymore. I've got no actual friends,my.family either is dead or they don't care I'm gone. And I'm pretty sure that I'm not going to stop her. She might be the death of me.

Hell if I beat them,what do I do after? Just where do I go? I don't know if being in this house is safe anymore. They've probably broken in here. There's dried blood on one of the bedroom doors and I know it isn't mine.

I...I don't think so at least.

It might be a puppet's blood but I don't think they bleed. I can't recall if I made the Hobo bleed or not. The whole setting him on fire thing was a fear induced blur. Either way I know it isn't mine.

But I gotta wonder how it got there. Cuz it's definitely too little to be lethal. So whoever it belongs to,at least they're alive.

Two Things

I lost my second job. I'm not going to get into why. But it was for the best,I suppose. After all I was horrible at that job. I'm going to apply someplace else. Hopefully it works out well for me.

Onto supernatural news.

I'm going to be completely honest with you all. These past few days have been really tense and I am getting tired. Really tired of waiting for them to do something. Watching my back for the puppet I tried to burn to try and hurt me. And I...I just can't stay quiet about those kids anymore.

No one even remembers they existed!

It's like they weren't even real! But I remember them. I remember all of them. Their screams,their fears and their tears. I remember them..why doesn't anyone else?

Why am I the only one who remembers? Does anyone know why? I..I just need someone to tell me. Please?

PLEASE?!

Long Story Short

Dolls oddly enough don't burn. I really wish someone had told me that before I tried to do that. Now I look like a complete fool and I accomplished absolutely nothing by doing that to the hobo.

Well I did manage to piss him off.

He kinda chased me for four blocks. I only managed to get away because I got across train tracks before a huge ass train had rolled by and stopped. Also the many cars nearby probably discouraged any supernatural means of keeping me. I was very lucky to have gotten away at all. If I try something that foolish again I think I'm going to be completely fucked.

Oh well.

In other news I haven't viewed a certain bitch's T.V. shows yet. At least that's something to be thankful for. But I'm guessing that won't happen until winter or so. Ya know cuz I won't be going really anywhere. Not having a car kinda sucks. I could have probably ran over those creepy dolls and been done with some of this bullshit.

I just hope that I can keep out running them. I really don't want to know what they will do if they catch me. It probably won't be pretty.