Worth It

Sometimes I wonder if surviving is really worth it anymore. I've got no actual friends,my.family either is dead or they don't care I'm gone. And I'm pretty sure that I'm not going to stop her. She might be the death of me.

Hell if I beat them,what do I do after? Just where do I go? I don't know if being in this house is safe anymore. They've probably broken in here. There's dried blood on one of the bedroom doors and I know it isn't mine.

I...I don't think so at least.

It might be a puppet's blood but I don't think they bleed. I can't recall if I made the Hobo bleed or not. The whole setting him on fire thing was a fear induced blur. Either way I know it isn't mine.

But I gotta wonder how it got there. Cuz it's definitely too little to be lethal. So whoever it belongs to,at least they're alive.

Two Things

I lost my second job. I'm not going to get into why. But it was for the best,I suppose. After all I was horrible at that job. I'm going to apply someplace else. Hopefully it works out well for me.

Onto supernatural news.

I'm going to be completely honest with you all. These past few days have been really tense and I am getting tired. Really tired of waiting for them to do something. Watching my back for the puppet I tried to burn to try and hurt me. And I...I just can't stay quiet about those kids anymore.

No one even remembers they existed!

It's like they weren't even real! But I remember them. I remember all of them. Their screams,their fears and their tears. I remember them..why doesn't anyone else?

Why am I the only one who remembers? Does anyone know why? I..I just need someone to tell me. Please?

PLEASE?!

Long Story Short

Dolls oddly enough don't burn. I really wish someone had told me that before I tried to do that. Now I look like a complete fool and I accomplished absolutely nothing by doing that to the hobo.

Well I did manage to piss him off.

He kinda chased me for four blocks. I only managed to get away because I got across train tracks before a huge ass train had rolled by and stopped. Also the many cars nearby probably discouraged any supernatural means of keeping me. I was very lucky to have gotten away at all. If I try something that foolish again I think I'm going to be completely fucked.

Oh well.

In other news I haven't viewed a certain bitch's T.V. shows yet. At least that's something to be thankful for. But I'm guessing that won't happen until winter or so. Ya know cuz I won't be going really anywhere. Not having a car kinda sucks. I could have probably ran over those creepy dolls and been done with some of this bullshit.

I just hope that I can keep out running them. I really don't want to know what they will do if they catch me. It probably won't be pretty.

Matter of Time

I'm trying to keep an eye on Alice's posts on Tumblr. Lately they're becoming more Alice in Wonderland than usual. Like her calling the Rake "Jabberwok". And maybe I'm overreacting but it seems that she's becoming more odd.

Like little Miss "Alice".

She still trusts my sister but I don't think Tina can stay together for very long. She seems to be unraveling at the seams. Rotting away into nothing more than a puddle of green gunk. If my assumption is right...Alice might lose more than her head.

Headaches

I've been waking up with headaches again. This time might be from the horrible sleeping hours I have,not drinking enough water or just stress. Either way I'm considering drilling a hole in my head to relieve the pressure.

Onto creepy things news. I'm not seeing any puppets in the open lately,but I have noticed them in other places. Like old buildings and rooftops.

Generally places where no-one is allowed. Like the usual with those dicks. I'm kinda wondering what it is with them and abandoned places. Creep factor maybe? Or possibly less likely to be caught in those places. By whom I don't particularly give a fuck. Either way I'm carrying a lighter and maybe something flammable tomorrow.

Can't wait to see how well they might burn. Hehehehe....

Irritated

My temper is starting to get really bad lately. I'm making friends upset and alienating the rest of them. They did nothing wrong or bad to me.

I think it's the stress getting to me. Or I'm just that shitty of a human being. At this point I'm not quite sure which it is. Either way I'm disgusting.

I would apologize but I'd feel like a fool. That's what I am after all.

A giant fool.

Last Night

TRIGGER WARNING: Blood and body horror.


I dreamt that I couldn't see for some reason and there were these weird things coming out of my arm. My right arm actually. It felt like spider webs but not as sticky. And they were very warm for some odd reason,but I don't know why.

They weren't painful until it felt like they were being tugged on by something incredibly strong. I was sure that whatever it was it wasn't good. But the more I resisted the tugging,the harder it became. Like I had somehow managed to snag a wild creature with these things.

After what felt like hours..the tugging suddenly ended. I don't know what possessed me to open my eyes but I did...and I saw through someone or rather something's eyes. I saw myself and I couldn't believe what I was seeing.

I had bandages covering my eyes...and good Lord were they bleeding! I was smiling despite not wanting to and holding the metal lantern in my left hand. It was glowing a soft yellow light.

It occasionally flickered too. I only woke up when I heard my alarm phone go off. Something tells me that if I hadn't heard my phone,I wasn't going to wake up.