Fit To Live,No

I don't get how they can have Candle Cove episodes without Percy. It just doesn't make sense. And the fact that they're trying to replace him with this weird kid in a pirate costume is kind of annoying. Hell I can tell that even 'Janice' doesn't like this kid much. She gives him the finger every-time his back is turned. And I can't help but giggle at this.

It's hilarious how stupid this kid is and how clueless he is to his companion's hate.

His name is 'Swashbuckler Steve'...motherfucking lame name. Who the hell named this kid? Please tell me they'll get Percy back soon. This kid is giving me a headache. And he's only been on for one fucking episode even.

Basically a whole episode of 'Janice' trying to lose him. But each time this kid finds her and is back with some fucked up story. It's like she can't get rid of him as easily as she did Percy.

Too bad. I was hoping he'd be dead at the end of the episode. Welp. There's always next time.

Speaking of bad things. Kid in the hospital seems to be doing much better. Not crying as much as they used to. But they've only been talking to the stuffed owl that they own. And they called it 'Danielle' for whatever reason. Oh well. If it makes the kid feel better,I ain't complaining.

Though I gotta wonder if it'll be taken by Doctor-Asshat sooner or later. Kind of hoping that it won't be. Kid needs something to hold onto ya know?

Needs something to feel comfortable with.

Where Is Percy?

Candle Cove is still without a Percy. And that really makes me wonder what the Helling Hell happened to the asshat. Did the Wooden Girl kill him?

Did those puppets?

Or did something else get to him?

I don't know if they'll continue on with the charade of looking for him. Quite frankly it seems like they couldn't be bothered to give a damn if he's alive or not. Especially 'Janice' who seems really happy that his stupid ass is gone. Like she planned this or something.

The episode was of her basically trying to hold back laughter as she looked for him with the Laughingstock. Laughingstock didn't seem to find what she was doing amusing. In fact for a foam faced boat..it looked pretty damn scared.

Never seen the boat actually give an emotion other than its usual grin that could scare babies. And give old people heart-attacks. 

But it looked so frightened that I almost wished that someone would..would kill Janice. Her little adorable face was just so full of evil that I could hardly stand her. She knew something about this but I wasn't too sure what. Maybe she killed him. That's what I think she might've done. I wouldn't blame her for doing that though. Bastard would deserve a horrible death. Though I'm not sure she would be able to take down a full grown man sized puppet.

At least not by herself.

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...i...ijustfuckingcan't...no. No. NOOO.

Why can't I get the TV turned off? Why won't it just turn the fuck off? I can't stand seeing more of these people in so much pain. It hurts...and it follows me like the damned puppets do. SHE was even with them this time.

Oh fucking god.

This kid..this teenage boy was...the broken pieces of mirror..oh god...please stop this! PLEASE?!!
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I...okay. I'm calm. I'm good. I'm calm.

There's no more people crying,dying or being abused on the TV. Now the damned programs are slowly coming back. Candle Cove just being it's damned useless self. The basic real episodes that aren't about the boy or that kid. Just fucked up episodes about Janice herself and the Laughingstock. Percy seems to be missing this time.

Not too sure why but that scares the shit out of me.

I saw that poor kid again. The one in the hospital crying and begging. Whoever they are. They really are trying to beg someone to help them. They're allowed only a few things. Crayons,paper and a stuffed owl that looks familiar. Like it was something that's sold regularly in the cafe. But I wasn't too sure cuz of the crappy security camera.

They were drawing crude pictures of something. Not too sure what exactly but it looked like themselves and their doctor. Them killing him...I think. Didn't get a too good look before a...what do you call mental hospital attendants? Well one of them came in. Took the pictures and went out. I'm guessing that is going to be seen by the Doctor.

And this kid is really gonna suffer.

Televised Mental Break Downs

...I hate seeing people cry because I don't know what to do when it's a stranger...do I stay? Do I try to comfort them? Do they want comfort? It isn't their fault for crying,I just can't handle that kind of stuff at all. I just can't fucking handle that kind of stuff.

So why is it being broadcast to me?

So many people..in pain. Bleeding,hurting and begging. Each of them crying for reasons that I can't quite understand in the slightest. Oh god. Who the frack are these people? And why is it being broadcast to me? There wasn't a set age group for the people either. They ranged from pretty much everything. It...I tried to block it out but it's hard to...so many little girls with bruises on their faces. Little boys hugging pets to them.

Then there was this guy. He was sitting on the floor of what I could guess was his room. His arms were just...just covered in thick scars. But he wasn't crying in the traditional sense. This guy was laughing and crying for some reason. Like he was hysterical or something. I..I couldn't tell. I just left my room and hid in the kitchen for a few hours.

Came back and it was still going on.

Instead of the young man from before. There was an old woman sitting in a car. Crying silently and trying to look less sad. Like she didn't want anyone to see her cry. And..th..then she pulled a..a gun fro..from her purse and...oh fuck..I can't..I JUST FUCKING CAN'T!!

I Feel This Is Unprofessional

I've read Alice's latest little thing on Tumblr and I'm pretty damn sure your doctor can't do that. It's not something they're supposed to do right? They can't exactly force someone to do these types of things. I mean Alice isn't delusional or anything. She seems quite capable of taking care of herself. Why does that bastard think he can control what she does?

Okay so some of what she did wasn't a good idea but to do that? That seems highly unethical to me. Anyone else think so?

http://outofthecoldchild.tumblr.com/post/67031353301/under-my-supervision

Pressure Headaches

I'm getting bad headaches again. And they come with muscle twitches. Yippeee!!! DX I'm so very lucky! At least I can somewhat breathe alright. I usually get some form of fun sinus problem around this time of year. Though now that I've written that I'm probably gonna wake up short of breath.

Or something like that.

The TV channels are back to their usual fun programs of fake TV shit. No Candle Cove or that proxy thing. Nor are there any Puppet contests. Just a channel of some kid sitting in a room by themselves. Their hair is all long and greasy. They're wearing a hospital outfit. The kind you usually see when a TV character is in a mental hospital. But aren't patients supposed to bathe when they're in these places?

Anyway. They had their arms covering their face. And all that happened for fourty minutes was that along with weeping sounds. Pathetic and lonely. Like they'd been just left there and no one came to visit them ever. Then towards the end. They moved their arms from their face.

The camera wasn't too good but they looked frantic. I could barely make out their face cuz of the quality of the camera. They yelled,"I WANT TO GO HOME!! YOU PROMISED ME THAT I COULD GO HOME!! DOCTOR PLEASE!!!"

A soft but very eloquent voice replied,"Not until we are sure that you will not harm yourself,dear. I cannot risk you not listening to my advice again. Especially after this latest incident."

"I told you that it wasn't my fault! I didn't...I didn't mean to!! Please Doctor! I'm sorry!!",they begged. Their voice sounded familiar but I couldn't place it. Before it ended the voice simply said,"I know you are. But you have to face the consequences of your actions,dear."

.......................holy fuck.

Visions Of Disgustment

....there are no fake TV programs anymore. Just the people I care for lying either dead or injured at someone's feet. Alice,Tina and my other family members.

Not together mind you.

Tina's someplace. Can't recognize it at all and I'm sure she's...she's either strangled or her neck is broken. I can't tell..oh god...

Alice was the worst. So much glass and so much blood. Who the hell could do such a thing?